SOOOO.............

So....I have came to the conclusion that you can not force a friendship...nor can you force yourself upon others. People will either hate you or love you for no reason. I dont care anymore quite honestly....everybody moves at their own pace, but when I do make something of myself, I dont need anyone to have a "change of heart". This one was real short...hmmm,lol.

Searching for you Soulmate

So me and Roland was talking last night, and we were talking about "galin a good girl". My thing was, I dont think there are a lot of "good girls" around these parts. So we were talking and came to a conclusion. You CANNOT find your soulmate at the club...ESPECIALLY when you meet them at an 18+ club. Truly, you shouldnt search for your Soulmate, they should come to you naturally, but you dont want nobody crazy or who aint about nothing on your coattails either...I mean ultimately you want marriage and a family. Try meetin people at an Art Exhibate, an Aquarium, or the theatre, somwhere where there is culture. I mean anyone can go to the club or the mall, therefor the ratchett will be present in those vecenities as well....but people will continue to do what they want...but good things are hard to find, just dont go diggin in the trash to find a diamond...

After Love

I thought you were the one, yes I thought you were the one...but I guess I was wrong.
What can you say when it's all said and done, nothing at all.
How do you expect me to heal this open wound, when there's a constant reminder of you?
The awkwardness for what we had, dont want to cause anymore confusion.
What can you do After Love? nothing but continue to move on...cuz If you stay in the past...
You will never progress and try to feel what you once felt...
We've made our bed, now we have to lay in it....
After love....nobody knows what to do....maybe things should have been taken slow...

February 10th

Nothing special, just anticipating and praying. School was cool, but its a shame when you have to do the dang fool in order to get a book for school. So I go to the bookstore to get a book that i ordered over 2 weeks ago. I mean black people should try to help each other out, and Tre Meredith did...but his boss was being a hoe and was trying to give me a run around saying it wasnt a textbook, it was something else. it looked EXACTLY like my textbook. Long story short, I acted a fool and threatened to burn the bookstore down....hands down I got mi book...

Yea Yea

So I haven't been on here in a while, and clearly life has taken me on a rollercoaster ride. So 2009 is here and I have not made resolutions, because when you make resolutions, you are setting yourself up for things you may not achieve. I've lost a few "so called friends"....that's fine, I could care less. People are temporary and you shouldn't shun out people from your lives, because everyone serves a person, no matter how useless and vial they may seem. This year has definately effected me. God has really become apart of my life. I mean, my faith has strengthened.... I finally raised my GPA, I had a financial aid refund check for the first time,when I really needed the money and I trust that God has a reason for allowing this... For some odd reason, Im really "DOWN FOR THE CAUSE" lol, like im really afrocentric right now, and I'm even planning on going to Ghanna this summer hopefully. My advice to anyone is to get off your butt, and do something...whatever it is, let God guide you though, you dont want to be 35 and wonder what have you done with your life...but like I said, it's whatever...Im only responsible for myself and nobody else...P.S. I have some of the coolest friends...ya'll know who you are....Effin Losers!!! lol.

Hurricane Ike Volunteering

This is not a poem,song or observation. Just what had happened today. So I go out to do some volunteering for Hurricane Ike relief, and it's all cool, you know giving back to the community. But the people who were running it were hella-rude, and a lot of the people were trying to get over on the system. I mean, damn, there are more than just one family in the city of houston who needed,ice,water,and food. Those two things pissed me off. Im not going to sit up here and lie and say that it was the best experience or feeling, but it was cool to perform a selfless act for once....

Nice Guys Finish Last...but the Good Boy has Gone Bad

They say that we are a dying breed, and to tell you the truth,we are.
You may see us, helping others and befriending the lonely, but this is no longer the norm.
Society has got us bent on thinking that the typical (African American) Male, is a thug, a player of some sorts and that's what the females flock to.
What about us? When is it our time to shine? I approach you with respect and class only to be shot down?
I talk to you like my mother had raised me to approach and talk to females and I get shot down?
I refuse to sleep with you because I barely know you, and all of a sudden, I must have something or im too small to function???
Instead of laying on your couch and playing Playstation, I want to take you out for a night of culture and fun, but in no way you enjoy what I do?
I look at myself in the mirror and wonder what's wrong with me?
I disect myself and try to fit into a mold that I clearly can not fill.
I'm now alone, just me and God and I'm evaluating my life thus far...I try to stay on the straight and narrow, but I'm constantly getting detoured.
Listening to others and taking misleading advice.
I now have no respect for women.
I have no respect for my fellow brother.
I have no respect for myself.
I find other ways to make myself,like me.
I find ways to make me feel good.
I am no longer the good boy you once knew, and could rely on and relate to....

I am now the Good Boy Gone Bad...And I don't know when Im turning back.........